Photo Posting Application
I have found that even amongst the most “radical” instagram pages, people still hold themselves to rules when it comes to what they post on their accounts. I hear my friends and myself in my head, pondering whether an image is interesting enough to share with the world of followers we have, our audiences which we perform for.
I remember when everyone learned the word aesthetic in my high school. It was a tumblr craze in which people became obsessed, they had found a word which gave them agency in owning their own image. People began focusing more on their brand of personality, trying to both create and define what they were all about. As pretty as the word was, it always leaves a sour taste in my mouth. As a first-generation mixed race New Yorker, the mish mash which is my background, me, never felt definable in finite expression. For me, aesthetic is a finite form of expression which makes me nauseous. It’s non-existence smacks me in the face everyday I get dressed, and I am sure that through looking at the multitudes which exist in people, one specific aesthetic doesn’t fit most of us. Instagram is the manifestation of this desire to define self in cohesive means.
Not to say it’s possible to cover all of MeAndWhoIAmAndWhatILikeAndWhatIStandFor in any sense, but Photo Posting Application is a small attempt at murdering the idea that our Instagram accounts are anything other than a place where we can post (kindof) whatever want, and of whatever sides of us we want.
Working with what is taboo and feared, I have shared online with people from all circles of my life parts which they may not usually see. Photos of my crying, pooping, and images of things which I have been apart of, are unlike the masses of very cute photos of myself I usually share. There is a photo of me facing away, posed the same as though I were facing towards the camera, smiling, showing how cute I am at this cool! New! Place! I visited. I posted 11 blank images as an attempt to bother people who follow my account-- or relieve them of their dopamine duty.
I don’t believe the destruction of the images we create of ourselves are the key to being “free” of them. We must let ourselves be, and regardless of if anyone feels so-inclined to join me in trying to release ourselves from ourselves, I hope I at least pointed out the freedom we have within an app which would be empty without us.